"So birds of a Feather, fly together, huh?
"So birds of a Feather, fly together, huh?
(1) I worked almost all of my early teen to adult life. One never worked & the other occasionally.
(2) I persevered through school (and internships). They both dropped out (and probably don't know what an internship is).
(3) I did not pursue young girls. They both did & each got one pregnant.
(4) With respect, though I genuinely support the LGBTQ community, I did not engage in or have a closeted- double lifestyle. They both had a sexual relationship with each other (despite the fact that one of them was a "self-loathing homophobe"). Apparently one of the motives.
(5) I do not have a record, nor have been in trouble. They both have records including robbery, violent and sexual offenses.
(6) I had my life together, with respect to everyone around me. They did not, which was the cause of desperation to commit the(se) crimes.
The unfortunate part is, that some people that were around and/ or knew us-- knows some and/ or all of this. Many people didn't understand why I even hung out with them. Our common ground was smoking marijuana and music. A bit of handball & skateboarding, though I was not good at both.
I've forgiven the fact that some people (that knew I was not involved) does not want to come forward. I understand because of where we come from or how we were raised. I mean, if I had cooperated with the detectives/ prosecutor, I would never have been arrested.
With respect to the victim and family, it was not even about being a snitch. It was instilled in me from a young age, to not "tattle tell"-- therefore, it was my default reaction to not cooperate. Also, admittingly & shamefully, not wanting any ties to the situation. Deniable Plausibility. Kind of backfired.
Lastly, I'll leave off with this-- any negative perception that anyone may have of me-- comes from the fact that they do/ did not have a mind or opinion of their own. With no due respect, many have formed great, loving opinions of me (other than my arrogance)-- but allowed themselves to be tainted by what may have been said about me by the same characters whom got me in here facing Life.
Think about it, I was always the same. Quiet, dry humor jokester, considerate, very conscientious, giving and simply mad chill-- WHEN I WAS EVEN AROUND (I was often told "where have You been?" or "longtime no see"). Again, many people didn't understand the contrast of my behavior, compared to them. So when did You start thinking otherwise?"
